didnt know if i was coming or going

After everything that had gone on, my head was buzzing. Things from my past were still there causing me pain, now she was managing to get in I was finding it hard to shut it off.

Everything was new, I was learning again. I had everything how I liked it, then she comes knocking and the door throws itself open like its being waiting for her, letting her see who I truly was.

I started fighting the changes, not wanting to have to feed, have to do this because I was now under this worlds rules, I didn’t follow the humans rules so these were rubbing me the wrong way.

Hearing her every thought and feeling everything she feels had me more confused, blocking out my feelings for so long then having them throw at me and now hers, I couldn’t deal with it all.

In the end I decided to go with it, if I did something wrong, fuck it. This is me now and I’m going to make it mine.