Emotional Commotion

I turned him, we got married and and all in the blink of an eye.  We came home after this whirlwind courtship and finally had time to breathe, so to speak.  We were bonded, I was his maker, the bond was strong and powerful, I could sense his every emotion and he mine.  This knocked us both off our feet.  I am emotional anyway add in his feelings and the craziness coming from two newborns,its safe to say we were both on edge.

Everything is magnified when you become vampire.  All your feelings and all your senses.  We were both feeling everything and it was a lot to handle.  Brandon was very moody.  We argued about a bunch of minor things but it always felt like the end of the world because I was overcome with his emotions mixed with my own.  The adjustment phase was rocky.

I have always been quick to get very defensive when I feel like I am unwanted or being pushed away for any reason.  It took me a little while to see that every time I was upset, he felt it and would get even more upset.  I had to find a way to stop taking everything so personally or I would force my husband to put back up the walls that he was slowly letting down for me.

I was trying to show him this new world and let him see how amazing it is, and he was showing me a bit of his as well.  In a way we were kind of both trying to learn about the other one and it was helping us to get over the over reacting and emotional outbursts and the arguments.  I was understanding his world, the magic and the power and he was understanding mine, yes a blood bond existed but we were also creating another kind of bond, one that I believe only final death will be able to break.