Life altering decision...

After we realized how strong our feelings were for each other, I began to settle down.  Trading wild times and looking to get into trouble for time alone with him. I was hungry to learn about him, and I was addicted to the taste of his lips, the way his skin felt against mine.  We hadn't slept together yet but it wasn't even something that was an issue, unlike past relationships, he wasn't pushing anything, but I was craving him more and more.

We both needed to get away from this town, after the recent stresses, we decided that we needed to go somewhere where we could be alone together. I booked us a cruise that departed out of Florida and we left right away. 

We stayed overnight in a hotel before we were to board the ship. We woke in the morning and neither of us wanted to get out of bed, just cuddling and talking.  Finally dragging ourselves out of bed and getting in the shower. It was only in that second that I realized he wasn't immortal.  I was scared of losing him and yet every minute brought us closer to his death and me losing him forever.  He must have sensed something in my demeanor change because no sooner had I realized this, he was asking what was wrong. I answered his question simply saying that I never wanted to lose him. He shrugged, saying he would die eventually.  How did he know my every though and feeling sometimes before I did?

I slowly mentioned that I may possibly have other ideas for him.  Shock crossed his face for a split second but he recovered quickly and began asking questions.  Not an ounce of fear or nervousness showed in him.  He was actually kind of excited, or so it seemed  He said he wanted to do it to keep us together. I can't even describe the love I was feeling for this man, making the ultimate sacrifice for a relationship with me, as fucked up as I am.

I was sad, grieving a little, guilt sinking in when I began to understand that I would have to kill the man I loved in order to accomplish turning him into a vampire.  He, again, comforted me when it should have been the other way around. We spent the day in our room on the ship,I was answering his questions and just being with him. 

We made love for the first time on that ship.  It was the first and the last time I would hear his heartbeat racing,it was kind of bittersweet.  That night we locked up the room, and layed together in our bed while I performed the heartbreaking task of taking away his human life in order to keep us together forever.  I don't think I ever understood what true love really was until I watched MY true love, give his life to be with me.